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holy shit this new script is exciting. I'm so glad that I got this idea when I did because I really needed to start writing again. I can't wait to turn this into an indie movie and enter it into the film festivals :)

well myspace was being a shit (what else is new eh?) but I had enough time to post some pix here. Can't stay on the computer long though because my c-section incision area hurts like hell. Soooo enjoy the piccies. More coming soon plus videos. Gotta go check on our little man too. Daddy got him a new bouncy seat and he keeps kicking his blankets off of himself lol. Good thing we have the heat up in this house or he would be freeezing. It's storming outside right now. Pretty sweet. 

Well, it wasn't an easy delivery, I'll tell you that much right now...

After being turned away from the hospital many times, we really didn't know when our baby boy would come into this world. We were actually getting really depressed because people kept asking us "so have you had that baby yet?" every time someone would ask I would almost end up crying bc I was so depressed... On the night of October 6th (my Grandma's (that passed away's) birthday) I started to feel very heavy contractions that would almost bring a person to their knees.

We rushed to the hospital and SURPRISE! I was in the second stage of labor. But Akira was still posterior. He needed to drop a little more so the nurse said to walk. And walk we did until the contractions grew stronger and I had dialated even more and effaced to 80%. Our nurse (nurse Jamie) knew it was our time and admitted us to the hospital.

The nurse said that I still needed to dialated and I also needed my bag of water to break but now I was completely 100% effaced after an hour had passed. The contractions were getting really bad so she suggested light walking and hot baths to help things a long. After I could walk no more, Thad started to draw hot/warm baths for me. He was always asking how I was doing and what he could do to make things better. At about three am, Dr.Haye stepped in and decided to break my water (YAY!). When my water was broken it felt like I had pee'd my pants lol. At three am my anasthesiologist (or however you spell it) came in and asked me about my pain management. I asked him if I could have the Epidural since the pain was getting so bad. First he gave me a shot to take the edge off and numb the area where the Epidural would be placed. At 4am I got my Epidural and it turns out that the only thing that is in the Epidural is called Phentanol or Fentanol I cannot remember how it's spelled. He had a hard time finding a spot to put it in. But after it was put in, I was good to go. I even had a little button to push when I needed more pain relief.

After that it was wait, wait, wait because everyone thought that I was going to deliver vaginally. Even I thought I was. They had been monitoring me and Akira to keep track of how we were doing. All throughout this time Thad was getting me water, ice chips, sprite, ect. :)
At 11:00am when the doc came in to check me, he had noticed that the baby's oxygen level was dropping dangerously low and had me taken over to the OR for an emergency C-Section. I had never been so afraid in my entire life. I thought I was going to lose my little boy. They wheeled me down on a gurney and I started to shake tremendously. After they administered more anasthetic and made sure that I was numb from the waist down, they began to cut. I couldn't feel anything. .... at 12 noon akira was born happy and 100% healthy.

I'm in a lot of pain now but it was all worth it.We love our baby bear :)

apparently he doesn't want to come out yet. The doc wants to induce me if he doesn't come by the 10th. I'm not really up for the whole inducing thing bc I want him to come naturally and not have them pump him full of drugs. The little guy needs to come out soon. I can barely breathe right now. I can just picture how the stories are going to be years later when he gets older.

"You made your Mom puke up green bile for the first four months of the pregnancy and she ended up in the hospital quite a few times bc of a rib sprain. You also didn't want to come on your due date and you made your Mom feel like she had a big bowling ball down there. When you finally came out I wanted to yell "striiiiike!" HAHAHA!

I cannot wait until this is over

kisses and cupcakes

mwah

Finally after nothing happening and many false alarms, I am dialated to 4cm
The hospital still sent me home though bc my water hasn't broken yet
It feels like there is a giant anvil sitting on my pelvic bone and my back is starting to get sore as hell
I'm gonna drink some tea, pass out, and hopefully wake up to my water breaking or something good like that
If I can get to sleep lol
If I can't I'll probably go decorate the nursery more!  :)

Just because you're a clothing company from NYC doesn't mean shit to me
Your clothes still make me vom and aren't cute
I would never sell out like that even if you did offer me free stuff
willneverstoopthatlow
TYVM!

Exercise at least two to three times a day
(walk, walk, walk)
Eat decent meals
(avacado rolls are my best friend)
Get as much sleep as you can
(I bring the zzzz just like I bring the lulz)
Try to have a good outlook on life
(you're blessed enough to be able to have a kid, so take joy in that!)

Stay happy, fit, and fun! It's not that hard to do! If Gwen Stefani can do it and I can do it, so can you too! :)

Even to this very day when I tell people that I'm 9 months, they get all O.O  because I decided that I was going to be a fit Mom and try to be as healthy as possible. I got away with only gaining a few pounds and I owe it all to the above mentioned and my hubby for taking walks with me and making me super yummy things to eat like avacado rolls, mac salad, and sweet rice. I splurged every once ina  while on sweets, buuuut I always made sure to exercise to work off those calories. Minus the PUPP, headaches, and nausea, this pregnancy has been great. Now it's time for our little guy to come out already because he is way overdue. Doc might be inducing me if he doesn't make his appearance soon :)

jealous people are silly and batshit crazy..try to ruin us all you want cuz you will never win
hmm, no baby yet, but I'm getting there
doc wants to induce if he doesn't come by next week
living rent free in your own two story house is the way to go
it took thad, polly, and I to put together the bassinet
free baby stuff is awesome
we were going through hard times but now we are sitting pretty
I love my life just as much as I love winning at the casino and strawberry itallian sodas
new pix soon
love (hate) me it's reallu up to you
you can't please everyone
half of the world needs to grow up and get over themselves
I'm in it for the lulz

After months of what seemed like an endless pregnancy, the due date is ALMOST here! September 15th! We got the nursery all fixed up plus the bassinet put together and everything else. Awesome! New pix coming sooon yay!

moved to a new house. two stories. two bedrooms. one bathroom. big kitchen. niiiiice livingroom and a waterpark right down the street. it's hot as hell here in montana but I can deal with it. been writing a lot too.

Yes I'm a real author, for those of you who didn't know. I didn't go through college for nothing. Even though college was boring and a waste of time due to the pre-reqs I had to take in order to even be considered into a four year, I got them done and over with and am now happy that I did. There is a large bold line between those of you who write fanfiction and real authors. Those of you who write fanfiction don't do it for a living. Real authors are always trying to churn out new ideas and upon those ideas, they draw the finest materials anyone has ever laid eyes upon (most of the time unless it's put together too quickly and it flops.) Anyone can write a fanfiction. Anyone. But it takes a lot of hard work and effort to be able to get your book published and out into stores for people in real life to read. Right now I am in the middle of writing my very first novel. It's going to be quite lengthy, but that's because it's a collection of my very own short stories. Everything in the book is 100% original and by me. No one else. I take pride in putting together things without the help of others. The plots contained in the book will floor you, to put it simple. They will grab you full body and pull you in with them. This is no holds bard. I am not holding anything back with this one.

What is the fuel that feeds my fire for writing? That I will never tell. That would be like giving away a secret. Just know that it's something I live with day in and day out. Personal experiences, in a way, so to speak. If everything goes well, my book will be published by December. I wasn't joking around when I said that 2008 was going to be my year. I have already been talking to some of the staff at Myspace and Yahoo about advertising packages. They have been very, very cordial to me during this. I will probably be spending some money to get my name out there on the net (huge banners, online commercials, you name it.) I'm approaching this in a pro-light because I'm not a teenager anymore. When I was a teenager, I was naive. Now that I'm a grown woman at the age of 26, I know how the world works and how to use it to my advantage. Never taking it for granted. One of the companies that have also been more than helpful is Boarders. I have been talking to a contact of mine about getting my books in their stores when it's all ready to go. For a small percentage, it can be done. I'm very excited about that as well. If you know of any other sites that are up for doing advertising deals, let me know, because I'd be more than interested.

In other news, I'm in week 30 of my pregnancy and the little ninja inside of me usually starts kicking around twelve noon and doesn't stop until late into the evening. His kicks are so fierce sometimes that they shake my entire belly. My fiance always loves to put his hand on my belly to feel them and to feel the baby move. I'll be adding a lot more pix soon. We have been making a scrapbook full of the ultrasound pictures and so on. We are also getting our own house soon. Two bedroom. I cannot wait. We are even going to make the spare bedroom into the nursery. As for marraige, I'm officially taken now. Off the market for good. I'm glad. Ever since 1999 I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with Thaddeus. It seems like every wish that I have ever hoped for is being granted.

My clothing line is doing pretty good as well. I'm finishing up some plushies, hats, skirts, ect for it. I'm in LOVE with this blue and white ruffle skirt that I made. I promise I'll post up some pix. I've just been really busy lately. Since I quit my job last week, I do have more free time though (thank God), I had to quit due to being in and out of the ER so much. This pregnancy went from being a normal one to a High Risk pregnancy due to my health problems. I try not to focus on it so much though because when I do it starts me off worrying.

That's all for now. I need to get back to writing. One secret I will let you in on though, if you're writer, try sunflower seeds. They're some of the best stuff ever and it'll help you out especially when you have writers block. I know it helped me quite a few times. Plus, they're good for you if you don't get the ones that have all the nasty perservatives in them! :)

I'm going to give Stephen King a run for his money, he better watch out because there's a new author in town.

Alright, so I was really amped to see that the local book store here was carrying the new Stephen King book in which the short story1408 was in. I wanted to read the short story before seeing the movie..BIG LET DOWN! The short story sucked major benwa balls like no other. It only lasted a few pages and didn't even really get into it's characters. What happened to Stephen King? Why is his writing so shitty these days? Maybe he has exhausted all of his creative outlits on which he draws inspiration from? All I can say is YIKES he needs to start writing better material. I hope the movie is better than the short story. It HAS to be because this is all that happens in the short story

1.writer goes to hotel and has a talk with the manager
2.manager finally lets writer stay in 1408
3.writer goes up to 1408 and hallucinates a little then sets self on fire
4.writer flings self out of room and into the hallway while on fire and a man comes to save him by throwing ice on him
5.Writer is scarred for life
6.END OF STORY only a few pages SUCKS BALLS!!!!

What a waste of money. Do not buy the book Everything's Eventual, because you will be setting yourself up for a big let down. It is a waste of eight dollars, trust me on this!

I woke up this morning and my feet were swollen like crazy. I also woke up with the not so friendly morning migraine and Diego was kicking like crazy. Somehow I managed to put my shoes on though (thank goodness) after a few minutes of fighting with my swollen feet. Then after I grabbed a bowl of cereal it was off to work. Yep this girl is in her third trimester and STILL working. Anyone that says they can't work while they are pregnant is full of shit. Unless you are having a high risk pregnancy, you can work up to 32 weeks. I'm on week 28 now! I really love my job too. Working at Ross in the stockroom is so awesome because we get to listen to the music that we like (plus everyone swears like a sailor/truck driver so it's pretty funny. I love my co-workers. I work from 7am to 12 noon because I can only work that long (lifting, unpacking, ect, ect) my doctor ordered me not to work for longer than five hours. Anything past that I get really, really sore and sick. When I got off work, my fiance and I went to get fingerprints for the final application of our housing process. We may be getting a house and only have to pay one fifty per month because it's subsidized housing. We are in the final steps of the application process for a two bedroom. It'll be nice to have our own place because we are going to turn the spare room into the nursery! After the fingerprint thing, we went to the pizza shack and I had two slices of pepperoni pizza and an icee. YUM. I wish I had an icee machine here. It's so flippin hot outside I wanna take a run through the sprinkler system haha. After lunch we went grocery shopping and my fiance got me a pack of my favorite candy, Sour Patch Kids, and my favorite kinda Snapple, Mango Madness! It's now three fourty eight and I am tired as hell (wake up every weekday at six am to get ready to go to work, hell ya I'm tired!) I have tomorrow off, but I work sunday and on the cash register no less (HATE it. Customers can get so pushy serio.)

Next week I get paid (helloooo Friday) and as soon as I get my check I am going to buy more baby stuff.. Gotta stock up! They have a really cool diaper hamper at Shopko and I think I'm gonna buy it because it doesn't leave any odor or anything. It's called diaper genie. Very sweet. My Mom said that I should go with cloth diapers, but I think that would be a tremendous amount of work (too much actually) but, who knows. We'll see what happens. My fiance and I are getting hitched soon, but we aren't going to have the wedding at the church because they want us to go through four weeks of classes and to pay for them! Can you believe that crap?!) It's totally ridiculous. So we'll probably go to the J.O.P and afterwards have a big reception at Thad's parents house. It'll be less stressful that way. Those marraige classes seem like a load of crap. Why should you have to validate yourself to a complete stranger anyways???? I don't get it.

I'm growing out of my favorite pair of pants. My belly is too big to actually wear them at waist level, so I have to wear them below it. They sag so badly, but they are really comfortable. My poor pants, I don't want to give you up lol! I've been doing a TON of sewing too. It's insane. I'll just sit down and sew and sew. I love it. I really enjoy creating things that just pop into my head. Seeing them come to life is the best ever.

Well, that's all for now. I'm really, really tired and Diego just started kicking again because I'm drinking an ice cold glass of Snapple (he kicks whenever I drink something sweet/really cold!) So I'm gonna drink the rest of this and go take a nap.

It really baffles the hell out of me. Why go around and fake that you're pregnant or fake that you have a kid? Is it because all the people in the media today are popping out babies left and right and every other chick wants to jump on the bandwagon? Is it the scene thing to have a baby now or fake that you're preggy just so your site can get more hits or you can have more comments? I've found ten fakers so far. One on here and the rest on Myspace, Babycenter, and one even pretending to be me on Babyfit. It's really creepy when someone jacks pix and tries to pass them off as their own like what happened to my friend Lady Luck on Myspace. Someone not only stole her belly pix, but also pix of her son and hubby too! Me and my friend Emmy caught that person because we are on Babycenter and came across them trying to rip LL off. It's sorta like identity theft in a way. You shouldn't be stealing other people's stuff and trying to pass it off as your own or go around faking that you have kids/are pregnant. That's just pathetic if you do and you need to step away from the computer and get a life. I HATE liars, I really, really do. I also hate thieves as well. People who pretend that they're pregnant or that they have kids, those people need to get their heads checked seriously. Having babies/being pregnant is NOT a trend.

Being pregnant is really stressful, exhausting, and downright crazy. Not to mention you have something inside of you beating at your insides and you can feel them from the fifth month on and every month following their kicks, punches, and twirls get stronger. Everytime Diego kicks now, my entire tummy shakes. I'm always worried about if he's alright and how he's doing. Maternal instinct I suppose. Plus no matter how much you eat when you are pregnant, you are never satisfied. AT ALL. No matter what. The baby's kicks don't feel slimy or nasty either. When they press up against the inside of your tummy/and/or/kick/punch, it feels like little fireworks going off in your belly. These days when I press down slightly in my lower abdomen area, Diego presses back softly. It's so amazing. Being pregnant isn't a trend, it's a blessing and a gift. People shouldn't be looking at it as something that is OMGZSOSCENELOLZ because it isn't, sorry.

Being a parent is not trendy either. It's also a privalege, blessing, and so on. People need to stop with all this nonsense about posing as having children. Being a parent is NOT all fun and games. It's a lot of hard work, time, and effort. From changing diapers, to having sore boobs if you're breastfeeding and everything in between like getting up at 3am because the baby is hungry or wants something else. It isn't all fun and games being a parent. Sure it has it's good things of course! But it is mostly a lot of responsibility.

With that note, I'm going to dedicate my buzznet account to giving everyone the REAL inside scoop on how it is to be pregnant. Yeah there's books out there and stuff you can read by other people, but I'm sure you'd rather tune into this. I'll also be starting to post some videos as well. I'm already in my six month, but there is still so much to talk about. So this little buzznet will be about the life of a pregnant girl (up until the baby is born of course!)

Marie Calendars tv dinners are nothing but crap. It's the same as other tv dinners, frozen to the core with a ton of perservatives. I can hear someone pulling up to the house right now. As soon as they step inside I'll bombard and bribe them to take me to the store and get some real food. I've only had grapes to eat today, which isn't a good thing at all since my doc said that I'm six pounds underweight now. How the hell did I go from being only one pound underweight to six?

It baffles me...There is nothing to eat in this house and everything that I can cook requires stuff that we don't have. I would have been stuffing my face earlier but alas no one is here to take me to the store and I don't have my own set of wheels yet.

FUNNY how everyone else at my work gets two days off and I only get one What a crock. I wonder why that is? Today was supposed to be my day off, my day of relaxation, but I didn't even get to eat a full meal today because no one is around to take me to the store. I doubt they'll wanna take me when they get home. I at least want to get some lettuce, tomatoes, pickels, and cupcakes. I'll be one pissed off preggy girl if I don't get those before the night ends.

This money is burning a hole in my pocket and it's crying out to be spent on food. What a dilema.

Q- what do you call yourself when your unborn baby kicks about 94 times within a one hour period?

A- A human soccer ball

Hahaha

My Model Mayhem account has been bombarded with messages over the past few days ever snce I announced my pregnancy on that site. Seems like everyone wants to get photoshoots of pregnant girls. As long as they're tasteful and fun, I don't mind. I really don't like working with male photographers though. Most of them creep me out. I've only met two nice ones. The rest are eh.

I feel like sewing, but I can't find the motivation nor the effort to do it because I feel so exhausted. That's what happens when you're pregnant and get your insides kicked all day. I wish I could get locked inside of Albertsons for the night. If that were to happen, I promise you that there would not be one food item left on their shelves unless it was completely nasty like veal or liver (fghsdkghsg gross).

It's dumb how people tend to glamify pregnancy and how some teenagers thing that it'll be the coolest thing to get pregnant and they can just live off of the government for the rest of their lives. It doesn't work like that, sorry to say. Even if your ass is on TANF you still have to attend classes and get a job. Being a stay at home Mom is a thing of the past if you don't have a working significant other. Why are teens rushing into pregnancy these days anyways? I'm glad I kept my legs closed in highschool and waited until I was eighteen. At least I have some morals lol. Most teenagers don't even know the meaning of responsibility, then again a lot of adults these days are bad parents too. They just sit their kids infront of the tv when they should be outside playing with them or reading them books. Some parents even yell at their kids. It really disgusts me.

If you're going to treat your kid or kids like shit, don't have one. It''s that simple. Kids these days need encouragement, guidance, and love. They don't need to be neglected, abused, or belittled.

so the baby's kicks are getting more and more chaotic. When I'm at work
or when I least expect it usually it happens out of nowhere KABOOM. His
kicks are so fierce now that they shake my entire tummy, haha it's such
a strange yet awesome feeling. I'm already at the end of my second
triimester and about to begin my third. I can't wait until the
pregnancy delivery date is here so I can meet the adorable little guy :)

I went to the doctors and had a blood test done to make sure everything
was alright. The baby is doing fine and is healthy as can be, but I
found out that I'm anemic. It means I don't have enough red blood cells
in my blood stream. I'll be alright though, I just need to eat more and
keep taking my vitamins. :/

I haven't gotten as much sleep as I'm used to over the past few days because the baby has been moving a lot during the nighttime. It makes me think that I should become a vampire and sleep during the day. We went to the ultrasound and it turns out that I'm having a healthy little baby boy! I'm so excited. I wish it were september 15th already (that's the due date!)
I wanna scan the ultrasound pix as soon as I learn how to use Thad's Mom's scanner
I love living here in Montana
We hit a financial rutt for a while but super momma (me haha)  has got a brand new job and I start tomorrow
Now we can save up for the baby and the wedding
I'm so proud of myself
I thought no one would hire me bc I'm 22 weeks pregnant
I was really about to give up hope
BUUUUUT I now work at a little clothing store as of tomorrow
Orientation is at 4pm
I better get some rest...Maybe take a long bath

Being pregnant takes a lot out of you. I usually hit the hay at around 10 - 12 midnight these days. In between writing this script on Darfur and preparing for the baby and the wedding, it feels like I've been so incredibly busy. The baby kicks about 20 or more times a day. It just kicked a second ago, ha. It's the most strange feeling ever. It feels like little butterflies in your tummy. I've been really avoiding staying on the computer too much because when I sit in this chair for a long length of time, it hurts my back. Writing the script on paper so that I don't have to deal with the pains of this stupid chair.

Other than that all is quiet on the homefront

New pix and anime hair coming soon

So I barely had any sleep last night at all because the baby kept kicking. I think she or he kicked about fifteen times. They weren't little light kicks either. They were like soccer ball kicks. I am a human soccer ball lol. Oh my goodness, it's so strange but at the same time it's a very cool feeling. It's awesome to think that my fiance and I created this little life together. I only have four more months and some odd days to go. I'm already to the halfway point. Lookie





it's just a little bump right now, but I can't fit into my size 11 Junior's anymore lol. I gained about 2 pounds over the past two weeks. My doctor says that I need to gain more weight.. Being pregnant isn't as bad as people make it out to be I think. They over exaggerate. I'm having a lot of fun learning about how my baby is developing, what stages and stuff it's going through, ect.  :)